Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in Dead_Cowboy's LiveJournal:

Monday, September 3rd, 2001
1:31 am	Interesting dances cont... Well i'm back home and considerably more loaded. My friend charles has been looking for me. I guess ADI got to him before i did, i dont think he's mad at me though./ I'm pretty sure he knows whats up with her dope adiction and all that. Ah well, he was looking for me at the bar strip and i think i got home to fast. I'll see him soon. I went and hung out with charlie (my friend) and he got my mind off shit and i vented lot. 2DAY WAS A GOOD DAY KIDS. Still though, i love you kids, call me eh! 360- 236-9752 love yall, \ DCHC (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 2nd, 2001
10:15 pm	Interesting dances So i woke up on saturday and Adi (ex) called. We talked, and cryed. She told me about how i was her only friend and "how could i do this to her?". How could she do this to me. How dare she use me for a flop house. I do not deny her feelings towards me but I can not and will not be used. Other than that i said phuck being a broken man. I've been on a steady diet of H2O, Dashboard Confessional, tequilla, and sanitary food. I think i'm gonna go out tonight with some of my friends tonight. I'm so glad that I have the kind of friends who are here to help me out in my time of need. I got lots of people in my life who care about me a great deal. I hate to borrow something from all the Christians, but i feel truly,,,,, blessed. DCHC (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 1st, 2001
1:25 am	2day might be the greatest Well i went to work today. Lame. I get a bunch done. Cool. Got to go to tacoma for a bit to tansfer some merch from south hill to tacoma. Kinda cool. I got to see Tim and Jeff. Very Cool. Transfered some wings down to Oly. Cool. Got to kick it with Mandy, she's rad. ALSO I finally did it, i brok up with Adi. She got all her stuff out and left me this letter about how she loves me and stuff. BUT AS YOU ALL know, i am well and done. I'm kinda depressed but hell, I got H2O playing and they always get me fealing way better, Thanx Toby,Todd, Todd, Rusty, and Adam. You guys rule. Keep it real. If anybody wants to get ahold of me i'll be out at south hill most of the week and tacoma on saturday. I'd really appreciate it yo. later dchc. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 29th, 2001
11:51 pm	digital camers who has a digital camera? i'd like to put a picture with all this stuff... DCHC (Comment on this)
11:32 pm	t0day was the lamest day T0day was the lamest day ever, but at least it was my day off! I woke up to my girlfriend telling me that i'm a bad boyfriend, which is true, but she doesn't have to say it. Then she went to look for her ex-girlfriend (who's a heroin junkie). I got to spend most of the day by myself, knowing that she would come back in a bad mood. Ah well, at least my life is entertaining. I got to talk to my ex a bunch today to. I made her a cd with some cool music that i have been using to combat my drug addictions. As you all well know i still drink a bit but i am in firm controll of my drug addictions. The CD had some H2O, some dashboard, some get up kids, some ben harper and some other neat and strong, moving music that have been helping me become more posi. We talked about some cool stuff, she hurt her hand real bad and it's doing way better. That's good. I hurt my heart, and it's doing wonderfully. Her parents are good. Life is well. Except for that girlfriend of mine who had drama day from hell. She mad her chaos, she gets to deal with it. I didn't even shower today, ah well. Everybody can eat dick, IT'S MY DAY OFF!!! My landlord is coming tomorrow, so i better go clean my house up a bit. I can't go clean my room though cause my girlfriend is asleep from her long day of emotionally fighting with lesbians. She can go be gay for all i care. Screw it, I cast a shadow and I'm doing good... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 28th, 2001
2:51 am	drunk Okay so i'm drunk as phuck. I cant type worth shit and i'm listening to a cd i made my friend emmily. shes pretty. I hate that my girlfrined liveeeees with me and i wish she'd ffind her own damned place. I jsut want to go jerk off and she is asleep in my bed. By the way NO i did not spell check this cause i'm loaded, fuck off. I'm sad, listening to emo, my friend packer is puking on my porch and i still have go to work 2morrow. I'm pretty sure my girlfriend is cheating on me and my rroomate Emily (different emily than the one i made the cd for), im pretty sure she's cheating on my other roomate who is to busy playing video gameall the gawd damned tiime to notice.. My horiscope said im entering a new part of my life that i have never entered before... It better not suck dammit.... DCHC current music SAVES THE DAY, (fuck you i'm depressed, and loaded) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 22nd, 2001
5:22 pm	gotta see this you guys gotta see this but be warned it is VERY VERY VERY graphic. I am positive however that no one was hurt in the making of it. Be warned however. Direct your browser to: www.wayweird.com/archives/2000/jul/snuffy.mpeg (Comment on this)
4:47 pm	long time Wow, i haven't written here forever. I haven't had a moment alone forever. I been working at the south hill store for the past 2 weeks and haven't been able to see all the tacoma kids for some time. I'm starting to miss them... Me and the woman (she does have a name) are getting along great. She's such a great person. She really took command of her drug use and i'm proud of her. Something still doesn't feal right however. Hell i don't know. She want's me to go meet her grandma tonight with her family for dinner. I hate this shit. I have to have the tattoo conversation and everybody asks me why i have the word murder tattooed on the inside of my wrist and God on the other. I just got a new tatto also! I got 2 banners on my elbow, over and under that say, "A Pirate's Life For Me". It still hurts a bit and that means I shouldn't wear longsleaves. Ah well, what can an old-young bum do. These are the reasons I get tattooed. I feal different than everbody else, now i'm starting to look it. These things aren't images on my skin they're a reflection of within. Some people say it's a reflection of class. Well i don't claim to know alot about class, except that the upper and middle can kiss my ass. I feal so old sometimes. I been just about everywhere. I've hopped trains, chartered buses, drove walked and hitchhiked all around this area. I've seen alot and done even more. Still to this day however, I just can't find what makes me happy. I amuse myself with vices like booze, lust and things of that nature, but they're fairly hollow. Maybe it's just traveling around that makes me the most happy, seeing things I haven't seen. Doin things i haven't done, being things I haven't been. You may be happy with your lives, your pretty boys, your beautifull women and your fast cars. But me, I'd trade it all for an older sense of freedom, just walkin' ridin' and hopin' in this country. It's hard to grasp the beauty of the sun setting over a Montana horizon. These, fields, that just seem to go forever, right into the sun. It looks like if you walk far enough you can be burnt rite up with it. Or seeing the dew on a single blade of grass in northern california after a coke binge. Rite there you realize you don't matter and everything you do is menial, your job your car, your life, "the contents of your wallet". They all mean, nothing. Why? Because tomorrow morning that dew will be back. Who knows if you will be. The open road is a beautiful and amazing experience. I beg everyone in my generation to find it and live it, if just for a little while. Immerse yourself in what ever it brings you. It is the most amazing, and addicting intoxicant you will ever find and it will change your life forever. I'm fealing a bit random today... Can you tell? DCHC (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 7th, 2001
12:49 am	fish Well me and the woman went out and bought a fish and a snail. Kinda weird, this time last week i wanted to kick her the hell out. I don't know, I know I don't love her. She's great and all but I've been in love before and she isn't it. She's great, she's nice but hell, she ain't love. We have great fun and wonderfull sex (sorry straight edge kids). She just kinda straight moved into my place. Used me as a place to live untill she got all her bills payed off, now she pays rent so she can change stuff... I worry about her drug use too. I'm still in a self induced recovery and she might jeopordize that. I straight told her though, if her drug use becomes a problem, I'll leave her, kick her the hell out. She understands, or so she says. Fukit, i gotta open in the morning. Current music: Social D (Comment on this)
Friday, August 3rd, 2001
2:40 am	There is something inside that burns like a fire, and you realized that your blessed with hearts desire. Give me your heart give me your soul, it told me. There's a devil out there. She tried so hard always to be the one. Loved by all men but never respested by this one. It took me when i was young and i'll be left with it when i'm old. Be carefull of the devil out there, cause true love is warm but dead love is cold. just thinkin' (Comment on this)
2:19 am	very new So i've heard alot about this little live journal thing. Loads of fun so far. I tried real hard not to use my real name so that all the people who know me on here wont actually know who i am for a little while. This will be fun for the first few entries i guess. Mousey mousey, where is the mousey? Just because she left impact i hope she isn't leaving the area. I like my little mousey. She's fun for the dead_cowboy to play with... And to mister EDGE, you're welcome... you will be receiving something you have wanted for some time now, very, very soon... Time to put my head to rest, I need to be waking up soon... DC current music: social D (1 Comment |Comment on this)